Moving On....

Have you ever been told by anyone that you are someone that "likes new stuff and hates the old ones"? That phrase has never been said to me till recently.....

I don't get it... it is not like i am hating the old stuff in my life... then why? Isn't moving on something good in life? Sometimes i just don't get how others think. Then again, why do i have to care what others think... I believe that up to a point in life, each and everyone of us will understand and will make decisions that we think is right.

For me to have being put in this situation, i did not have much choices to choose from and make a decision. But in the end, the decision was made for me and i have set my goals and determination to make it happen. All of you know right, when your mind and heart is determined and set on to a decision and goal that you set, there is no way that it would change. I would think that the same goes for everyone.

I have been in the past and from deep down inside and being honest, i do not want to re-live it. The decisions that i have made in the past and the things that i have done are all but a regret to me now. If everything is my own decision, then why is it a regret? Well, the decisions are partly made by me but only the part where my actions come into play. So to put it in short, dictated to do things........

So.. bottom line, I AM MOVING ON AND I DO NOT WANT TO EVER RE-LIVE MY PAST!!

My Choice, My Decision! No More Dictating What I Should Do!

It has been a long week... Maybe confusing and maybe even frustrating as I would say. Everything that i did or try doing all went wrong for the past week. To make matters worse, the engine of my car broke down on me. So right now, I am like a crippled person.

At the same time, home has been frustrating.... Suddenly it is me that should bear for everything that i want? Why do i have to get blamed for everything??? Why can they not understand what I am going through in my life right now? Why is it like this? Why do i have to go through this everyday? Why am i so obliged to give in and become a mule? Then i am dubbed stubborn? Why don't they look in the mirror and see for themselves that they are the ones that are stubborn?

Why can't they understand the fact that I will be living my life on my own in the future, why can't I make my own decisions, choices and they just guide me along the way? Yes, people make mistakes. But don't tell me you never make mistakes.. Everyone is bound to make mistakes as long as they are HUMAN. Nobody is perfect!! Yes i also know that i am old enough and i should be bearing my own load.. but then, i am still studying? What should i do?

Remorse and Repent

A few hours ago, i came to my senses realizing that i had done something really bad. I wasn't thinking straight when i made the decision and i now realize that it was a stupid thing to do. I know what is done cannot be undone, but i do really hope that it does not affect everything that there is. Eventhough that it is just a risk and a fool's hope, i would like to try it out and maybe, maybe one day that hope will come true but till then, all that i can do is repent for what i have done and keep on hoping that it will not have such big effect.

Yea, i know i am selfish but everyone in this world is selfish in one way. But the thing i do not understand is why did i take for granted everything that has been given to me. Why did i choose to make that decision earlier today and caused everything to collapse like a set of dominoes.

Human behaviour and thinking is so hard to understand. Even so, there are certain occasions and situations where two people can understand the other.......... why is that so? What does it mean?

One Moment In Time

A song with such a wonderful meaning. Lets hope people still remember Whitney Houston.

Each day I live
I want to be a day to give the best of me
I'm only one, but not alone
My finest day is yet unknown
I broke my heart for every gain
To taste the sweet, I faced the pain
I rise and fall,
Yet through it all this much remains

I want one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams
Are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

I've lived to be the very best
I want it all, no time for less
I've laid the plans
Now lay the chance here in my hands

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams
Are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

You're a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams
Are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will be, I will be, I will be free

I will be, I will be free

Been There Done That, It Did Not Work Out. So...

Well, i have honestly tried in taking a bow and putting a lot more of effort into my current situation but it seems that what i do has no effect whatsoever. By putting a full stop in the sentence, it signifies the end of everything. No matter what i do, what i try, it was all meaningless.

I will just concentrate on my friends, study, earning money, work, family and more towards the community. I am going to rebuild my image and work hard to maintain it. What i have done in the past is history and i am seriously not going back to the old ways.

Please do not tell me that i am making a mistake as i have gone through the same phase in the past and now i think what i did in the past is all a mistake. I will try to make things right and i will please myself and make myself happy before i make anyone else happy. God Bless.

Malaysiakini allegations against DPM Najib resurface

It has been so long since i have read the newspaper and keep up to date with the current happenings in Malaysia be it in the political scene or the current happenings in Miri. So i went to malaysiakini website today and i saw on the front page that it says the allegations against our DPM has resurfaced... i have always wondered on this matter when it first came to light.

Why is the blogger Raja Petra so sure of his allegations until now. Even if it has lead him to being detained and all. Is there a mastermind directing him to do so? Or is it the truth that is covered up behind the curtains? Politics have never been as simple as it seems. There are always hanky panky and trouble or what we commoners would define as drama. Only that the drama politicians go through are on a bigger scale and on a different level. Everything will affect these politicians.

So what should we, the citizens of Malaysia do in regard to this subject and matter. Other politicians might take this chance and bring up issues and havoc. But the question is what should we citizens do? Maybe you might want to think it over sometimes?

Take a Bow

What would you do if someone actually tells you to bow down or take a bow? If you think that i am writing this post in regards to the song Take a Bow by Rihana it is a yes. I heard the song and i was so mesmerized by it.

The lyrics itself, are already meaningful enough. If you've listened to it carefully that is. And what i can say is it means a lot to me. Cause to me bowing down or giving in is not something that i do casually. And to certain people, bowing down takes a lot of courage and effort.

Maybe the song itself is trying to tell all of us out there that there are certain times where we should back down and rethink our options. Things come and go all the time. Why don't we ever think of it as it is just something that is passing by. Let it walk past you like a shadow.

Considering what i have been through lately, i would definitely say that i need to take a bow and see things from another point of view. A single person with only two hands can do only so much. But why do people try so hard in achieving something that seems so impossible? In these few days, i have been through things that i have went through in the past. BUT this time it is so different. This time, i had someone to share it with. Someone to share the burden with me or lighten my load. Someone to be a listener and to understand fully what i am going through. (You know who you are and i thank you from the bottom of my heart)