Friend or Foe?

This is the worst day i have been through yet. After going through a whole day of hectic schedule i reached home and had to endure the traditional "lecture" from *you know who* (those living with parents would know how this feeling is)

Its not like getting lectured is something wrong. But no one i mean no one could keep everything, every feeling holed up inside themselves. Everyone has that friend who you could always turn to when they have any troubles or anything that they want to share. But tonight i am not going to go into that part. As i have given up on that part quite a long time ago. It hurts when you trust someone with your all and they backstab you.

A few days ago, i did something that i really shouldn't have but i never thought that tonight... tonight i found out.. no matter how many chances you give to a single person or someone that you call a "friend" they are bound to waste that chance. Like i said in my previous post, deception, anger and sadness. These 3 elements are interwined with each other.

I feel sad but at the same time very angry. How can i be so stupid to trust someone that has backstabbed me once. WHY AM I SO STUPID? Even though you have good intentions.. i do not understand why, why people tend to be like this..... i feel like breaking down and crying... but i know its useless.

But now i know.. be it someone i know for tens of years, be it someone whom i love or my life partner, I WILL NEVER TRUST ANY SINGLE PERSON ANYMORE. I hate being treated like a servant or dog. Whenever they need you, they come looking for you, begging you. When they don't no matter how hard you try, you're just a pile of rubbish beside their doorstep. Now i really understand when people say you won't be happy just by treating others good or being concerned about them. TO HELL WITH ALL YOU FUCKING PEOPLE!!!!!!!! I DON'T FUCKING CARE ANYMORE. WANT TO PIA LAI LA. MCB.

**This post is not directed at anyone in particular. If you think it is you then it is you. If not then just move on.