Friend or Foe?

This is the worst day i have been through yet. After going through a whole day of hectic schedule i reached home and had to endure the traditional "lecture" from *you know who* (those living with parents would know how this feeling is)

Its not like getting lectured is something wrong. But no one i mean no one could keep everything, every feeling holed up inside themselves. Everyone has that friend who you could always turn to when they have any troubles or anything that they want to share. But tonight i am not going to go into that part. As i have given up on that part quite a long time ago. It hurts when you trust someone with your all and they backstab you.

A few days ago, i did something that i really shouldn't have but i never thought that tonight... tonight i found out.. no matter how many chances you give to a single person or someone that you call a "friend" they are bound to waste that chance. Like i said in my previous post, deception, anger and sadness. These 3 elements are interwined with each other.

I feel sad but at the same time very angry. How can i be so stupid to trust someone that has backstabbed me once. WHY AM I SO STUPID? Even though you have good intentions.. i do not understand why, why people tend to be like this..... i feel like breaking down and crying... but i know its useless.

But now i know.. be it someone i know for tens of years, be it someone whom i love or my life partner, I WILL NEVER TRUST ANY SINGLE PERSON ANYMORE. I hate being treated like a servant or dog. Whenever they need you, they come looking for you, begging you. When they don't no matter how hard you try, you're just a pile of rubbish beside their doorstep. Now i really understand when people say you won't be happy just by treating others good or being concerned about them. TO HELL WITH ALL YOU FUCKING PEOPLE!!!!!!!! I DON'T FUCKING CARE ANYMORE. WANT TO PIA LAI LA. MCB.

**This post is not directed at anyone in particular. If you think it is you then it is you. If not then just move on.

My Eyes Don't Lie by Janice

I came across this song again while listening my huge list of mp3's. I don't know who sent me this song (thank you very much whoever you are, i am glad you sent me this song) but somehow, this song suited my mood at the time i was listening. I am a bit lazy to find the song and upload it here so i put in the lyrics instead. Enjoy.

My Eyes Don't Lie - Janice Wei Lan

If rose is green and grass is red,
Will you remember what i said,
Baby don't forget, before you regret,
Stuck in my mind,
A needle through my head,
The light you shine into the night,
You take away my fright,
And for every time i see you i try,

What i try to say is stay with me tonight,
For what i really feel inside,
My eyes won't let me hide,
Every time i see you they start to cry,
Cause this time, my love, it could mean goodbye,
Don't say goodnight...

The Start of Something New

I woke up today d**n early today. I don't know why but i was surprised myself. Maybe its something good cause if i can get this post as Marketing Executive i will need to get to work by 8.30 every morning. (Except Sundays of course -.-)

Did the daily routine that i do before i go out, take bath, brush teeth bla bla bla... but not breakfast -.- you may wonder why but somehow breakfast has never been in my daily routine. After all that, i was getting ready to go out. Put on my shoes etc.... opened the front door... and ..... clicked on the switch to open the gate.................. but nothing happened..... s**t!! The gate won't open -.-" and the weather was already getting so hot and humid !! I was like "OMG, NOT AGAIN!!"

So i had to open the gate manually... after done doing all those finally i am on my way. After driving halfway down the main road i reached Pujut 4 roundabout... then i thought to myself, where was i going again? It's not the first time this happened. I was practically clueless on where i was going to go so early in the morning.

Eventually, i ended up in Yakin Food Center eating dim sum and sushi. Nothing special about the dim sum, priced at RM 2 each what can you expect? Sushi is at RM 2.50 per roll if i am not mistaken. I don't really keep track on where i spend my money so yeah that's just an estimated guess.

Don't have pictures for breakfast but it was a light one as i only spent RM 6 on my breakfast. 1 fishball dim sum, 1 roll of sushi and 1 bottle of mineral water. Done having breakfast, i got on my car and started the engine... after a few seconds, i ask myself the same question again. Where am i going now? (LOL you must think i am such a dork) 1 minute into thinking on where i should be going, my handphone rang. It was my friend calling me reminding me to send in my cover letter and resume for the Marketing Executive post. (OMG i am not even halfway through those stuff)

Rushed back home switched on my pc and started grinding on the letter and resume. Approximately around noon, i finished typing and printed everything out. Next i went to Boulevard shopping complex to get a picture of myself taken as i need to put one passport size photo in my resume. That took like... 20 minutes... took my pictures went to my car, started the engine and turned on the air-conditioning. I took out my pictures and looked at them... OMG i look like a dork ! =.=" No choice now.. that's the price i have to pay for doing everything last minute.

Attached the picture to the resume and made my way to Parkson where i called my friend and handed him the envelope containing the application letters etc etc... By now, it was like 2 in the afternoon.. i just realized that i have not eaten anything since my light breakfast this morning. I didn't know what to eat so i drove myself to Sabrina Corner in Saberkas. Ordered a nasi lemak and a blueberry sparkling juice. Total = RM 8 (RM 3 for the nasi lemak and RM 5 for the sparkling juice)

Here are the remains of my feast :)

Anger, Deception, and Sadness...

The 3 main elements that always be in connection with each other. No matter where and how you put it, as long as there is deception, anger and sadness will follow suit. Where ever there is deception.... there will always be anger and sadness... and sometimes even death and fatalities.

So what is anger? Deception? Sadness? Why do people need to deceive each other and make either one angry or sad? I always ask myself this question... but i never seem to be able to answer the question myself.

Every single day on this earth goes by and almost every single minute a person is deceiving another or maybe lots more. Is wealth so important until all these people keep thinking of ways to deceive the innocent out of their hard earned money?

Well I know I am only 21 (coming to 22 this year) and most people would say i still don't know enough a.k.a. not enough experience gained in the society but what good is gaining more experience in a society full of deception and lies? What happened to all those hard work earnings?

I feel angry and sad when i see these things happening. Why can't we live in a peaceful and harmony? For example, politics in Malaysia now... opposition versus BN government... which side is telling the truth? How do we know who's lying? If the opposition claims are true, is our own government deceiving us?

It is true that you can not live in this world without money. But you do not have to go deceiving another just to earn that living... there are a lot of ways to earn a decent living. As long as you are wiling to and hardworking enough, I am sure that you can earn a decent living. I pray for those who rely on deception to earn a living.... because i believe that there will be judged when the time comes. Be it by the law or by God. Amen.

Tiada Lagi by Mayang Sari

Editing a template needs a hell lot of concentration and reading... especially if you don't know anything like me... it can get frustrating at times but a little music always helps ease the tension. I was looking on information and reading through a lot of tutorials on how to "pimp" my blog when i came across this song.

Like always, i just click on the winamp icon and click play. My winamp is always on random repeat. So it plays almost every song that there is in the playlist. Then... i heard this song... it is undoubtedly an oldie song. But it is very very nice and very meaningful. Just sharing this song to everyone out there.

The quality is not that good but if anyone wants the .mp3 version of the song just post a comment saying which way you want the song to be sent to you and i will get on to it as soon as possible. Enjoy.

HRH Services Sdn Bhd

Today i am going to blog about HRH Services Sdn Bhd. I don't think this is going to be the only post today since it is a Sunday. HRH Services Sdn Bhd is the company where i used to work before. I am not working as a full time employee anymore but i still do some part time work for them.

First of all the company profile or background. As most of you all Mirians know, HRH Services Sdn Bhd is one of the authorized PERODUA servicing center apart from Kong Teck Motor. The workshop is situated in Piasau Industrial Estate where it is located just opposite Hiap Seng Motor (for those that know this place).

For those that don't, do you know the Petronas station in Piasau? There's a road beside it that leads into the industrial area right? Turn into that lane and go straight till you reach the first exit to your left. At this left turn, you can see Hong Seng (recon shop etc). Turn in and go straight yet again. Skip the first left turn, and turn left on the second one. By the time you turn in the second left, you can see the PERODUA signboard. I will work on a map and get some pictures to upload soon.

Well, there you have it, HRH Services Sdn Bhd is a PERODUA service center and yeah i am promoting it. Why? Well, they have this privilege card program that was launched in November last year and up until now, only thing i can say is that the promotion and discounts given is really worth it for those who often service their PERODUA cars.

Details of the promotion:

• Membership costs RM 18 for life. (No renewal fees)
• Get a free Element Oil Filter worth RM 14.50 free for each servicing
• 5% discount on the total bill regardless of servicing or purchase of items
• Members are entitled to a 24 hour careline which provides break down assistance and etc.
• This card is only valid in HRH Services Sdn. Bhd.
  

So if any of you guys or gals out there are interested in applying for the card, you can contact me. My H/P number is 016-8730066. If you have any questions or inquiries you can also call and ask. I would be more than happy to help you with any problems or questions that you have in your mind.

1 Year 1 Month and 2 days.

Hello all, it's been 1 year 1 month and 2 days since i last updated my blog. To be honest i forgot about my blog, i even forgot the password and such till i thought of taking up blogging once again last week. I somehow found my password and successfully logged in. (Thank god blogspot has the recover lost password function)

There's so much to write and so little time to do so. As a simple summary, i finished my diploma, and am waiting for grad day in July. Didn't get the high grades that my mom wanted me to but thank god i finished it in one piece and still sane. Currently measuring every inch of road and open space in Miri so if anyone has any vacancies feel free to hook me up.

For the past week i have been in a few mood swings and i mean those drastic mood swings that happens sometimes. I can't seem to think of a reason why it happened. A part of me wanted it to happen.. but another part of me feels tired of the mood swings. I feel restless, nothing to do, don't know what to do, and no idea on what to do. It is just like wandering aimlessly in a dense jungle or as one would say lost in space.

It is just like.. dreaming when you're sleeping and *wham* you fall off your bed and get back to reality..... i hate this feeling. How i wish i could turn my life the other way round.