The Sense of Insecurity

The sense that makes everyone feel insecure and not safe. What does it really do and how does it really affect us humans? I am still yet to find out as I have only got this feeling recently. For some reason it is just a bit too strong for me to handle and I find myself at a dead end not knowing what to do, how to react and how to proceed on.

I hate this feeling. I feel like I am lost in the middle of nowhere wearing nothing. The feeling of naked-ness is really not something one would like to feel everyday. So what is it that makes us feel insecure? In my opinion, almost everything that is a need in our lives can make us feel insecure. Don't understand? Here's an example. Humans need money to survive and go through their everyday lives. Take out the money from their lives, make them have no money, most people would feel very insecure without some or a bit of money on them. Isn't that true?

So what is it that is making me feel so insecure? Money? Love? Family? Friends? I would say, almost everything is making me feel insecure but then again, nobody would actually notice as I always try my best to conceal it. So, here's another question. What would you do if you feel insecure but at the same time you have to provide the sense of security to your partner?

For me, to provide my partner with the sense of security that he/she seeks is more of like something compulsory. Being in a relationship, the first and foremost thing that I would emphasize in is trust. Without trust, there would be no relationship... or i would say that the relationship would not last that long. To answer the question above, I would say, even if I feel insecure, I have the obligation to make my partner/the other half of me to feel secure. I don't know about you guys out there, but this is what I think. It is true that some of you might feel differently, but this is my point of view. *wink* No need to get all so worked up. Feel free to drop some comments on your point of views and we could discuss and maybe you could contribute some new ideas to my next blog post. Till then, thank you for reading and enjoy.

Can you Define Love? - Part 1

(Ignore the wordings in the picture *hehe*)

What is love? Have you ever wondered what is the real meaning of love? Can you even define love? In my opinion nobody knows how to really define the meaning of love or I would say, everyone has a different definition of love. Doing it by the easy way (which is googling the meaning), I have managed to find a few definitions. They are:

• a strong positive emotion of regard and affection; "his love for his work"; "children need a lot of love"
• any object of warm affection or devotion; "the theater was her first love"; "he has a passion for cock fighting";
• have a great affection or liking for; "I love French food"; "She loves her boss and works hard for him"
• beloved: a beloved person; used as terms of endearment
• get pleasure from; "I love cooking"
• a deep feeling of sexual desire and attraction; "their love left them indifferent to their surroundings"; "she was his first love"
• be enamored or in love with; "She loves her husband deeply"
• a score of zero in tennis or squash; "it was 40 love"
• sleep together: have sexual intercourse with; "This student sleeps with everyone in her dorm"; "Adam knew Eve"; "Were you ever intimate with this man?"
• sexual love: sexual activities (often including sexual intercourse) between two people; "his lovemaking disgusted her"; "he hadn't had any love in months"; "he has a very complicated love life"

I would personally define it as a feeling that one has for another. Love can be classified into a lot of different categories. There is the love for family, friends, and lovers. So what is it that enables one to define the meaning of love? For me, love is like an flowing river that is not affected by time itself. It is a wonderful feeling where it enables you to show your affection for the other. But this is mostly for the lovers part. I don't know why, don't ask, but i am more interested in the lovers part. *wink* So, why am I suddenly writing about this? I recently read a post, that mentioned about something similar. Feeling that my opinion is contradicting with that post, I have decided to post one of my own and maybe in hopes that everyone who read this post would benefit from it. Although the opinions and views would be biased to my own way of thinking. Okay then, lets get it on. First let us discuss upon the simple factor that everyone always wonders whether it is right or wrong, appropriate or not. So, do you think that when you are together with another person (a.k.a. the other person is your partner/couple), it enables you to fully dictate and remodel his/her life? I have seen and heard a lot of questions regarding this situation and sadly I would say, as much as I don't agree to this, there is nothing much we could do to change the way that people think. Why? Nowadays in a relationship, without giving much thought to it, couples would deem that having control over the life of their partner is a must and there is nothing wrong with it. Well then, have you ever thought of what will happen when you get married if it continues? Will it get worse and become a dictatorship or will it just change into something else? I will leave the thinking to the rest of you. You can drop down comments, don't be shy. I accept comments all the same. I will continue this topic in a second part.

Goodbye friends.....

It is holidays again... and all my friends are going back to their hometowns one by one... This post is dedicated to Tracy.. a good friend of mine

Today i sent one of the EmoKids members off at the airport... Suddenly felt that time flies by so so fast... i still remember when the semester started, i was talking to Tracy and saying that 4 months is such a long time... now its already time for her to go.... don't know when i'll see you again my friend!!! Although I was not that close with her but she's always remain as a good friend to me.

Me and Tracy at Jojo's house party


From left to right, Lee Hui, Tracy, Shirlene and Me at the airport.

A Whole New World

Have you heard of the song "A Whole New World" by Celine Dion & Peabo Bryson? If you don't know, it is the OST (Original Sound Track) of Aladdin. For those who don't know, below is the song lyric.

A Whole New World

I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But, now, from way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
(Don't you dare close your eyes)
A hundred thousand things to see
(Hold your breath it gets better)
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world
With new horizons to pursue
I'll chase them aywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
(Every turn a surprise)
With new horizons to purue
(Every moment red-letter)
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Anywhere, there's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

Nice song eh? For me it is quite nice and it gives one the feeling that a whole new world is always out there waiting to be found. There have been drastic changes recently and I believe it is for the best. Up to now, I have not known the true nature of humans. Humans can be deceiving and so fake sometimes but for those who go overboard, I would not have any respect left for them.

Finals are Over and the Semester Becomes a Memory

To make a long story short, another semester has passed. Up to date, it is my second semester in Curtin already. I met a whole bunch of cool friends and a few really uncool people. (and i do mean it but i won't be mentioning names.. too bad!) But the most special group is the EmoKids. All of you, you know who you are.

Mr. Ian Tan

So how did i get to know this special group. It all started with me knowing Ian Tan (the guy in the picture above) through Magic The Gathering. Slowly day by day all through out the semester, I have been spontaneously elected into the new board of directors for the Rotaract Club of Curtin for the next semester. Don't ask me how it happened but it just happened. I guess I have to thank Ian Tan for his goodwill if it was not for him i would have not known such a wonderful group exists. *devil smile*

The official EmoKid logo on the t-shirt (sad i don't have 1 *sob*)

Basically, my whole semester is filled with memories with EmoKids. Be it an emo memory or a happy memory (most of them are super happy though). And just recently we organised Alfred's (EmoKid's super Wolf) pre-birthday bash at Cafe Rosita, Dynasty Hotel.

Birthday boy Alfred and ??

Cafe Rosita, the venue of the night.

I don't really remember everything that happened all through out the semester and I am not really a fan of typing a lot and thinking of flowery sentences or phrases. So i will let the pictures i stole from the photographer's facebook. Thank you for the pictures Joanne!

Special Reservation made by Mr. Chieng!!


Mr. Chieng and Shirley

The Guys of EmoKids

The Girls of the Night

Well I don't know what happened here but yea.. mini burgers...

The so called dessert was rumored so good that everyone stood there waiting even before it was ready...

The Famous Dessert

Alfred's B'day cake or should i say.. bday banana split..?

Getting married on Alfred's bday?

I Leap into the Future

Wow just look at how fast time flies. Looking at the date for the last post, it has been 4 months and 12 days since i last blogged.

My deepest apologies to those who have been visiting my blog now and then with hopes of some new updates. (Although there may be none... *big grin*)

Anyways, new updates and new layout changes are going to be in soon. *once i find one i like..* Tune in again to read about the crap that i want the world to know.